McDonald's talk with P. Ro :)

I already psyched myself up that I wouldn't be able to see this guy during his short visit in the Philippines. First, because I know that I would be too busy preparing and cleaning up for college camp, and second because  I know he'd also be busy catching up with the rest of the people, and spending time with his family here. I was also starting to think that this could also be better for me, because that way I wouldn't be sad, and start missing him again, hahaha. Yeah, I'm selfish that way...

The next day after college camp, kuya calls me up and asks me if I wanted to see P. Ro tonight. He said we could meet him after he meets up with his UCM youth, and bring him home to Q Ave. But he told me that it will depend if P. Ro would be up to hanging out with us after. But if that doesn't work out, we can still talk to him in the car while bringing him home...

 We met him at around 11pm, Monday. As soon as we saw him, he said we can just hang out at the McDonald's near his place, since it's open 24/7, and he hasn't talked to "this one" yet, referring to me, haha... I think we all knew what the whole point of this hang out time was. I guess that's why kuya took the time and effort for me to meet up with P. Ro, so he could ask me about how I was doing with my mum... So I told him... I told him how I felt, how I was grieving, how I've been up and down with God, and how everything's just so hard...

And he said... While it's okay to mourn... I shouldn't be mourning forever... Or at least not this way I guess, because I wouldn't want to miss out on God's purpose for me here on earth, coz I am still here... I'm still here. And that my mum wouldn't want me to be living in grief forever, coz she wants me to be happy. He also reminded me of the beautiful reality that my mother isn't looking down on me from Heaven, because she's far too busy looking and worshiping our Heavenly Father... And I take comfort at that fact.

He said, sure, I may always be sad about it, and this may always be the thorn in my flesh, but that should not hinder me from glorifying our God... I needed to hear that... I really needed to hear that. So now, I am praying for healing... Healing for my broken heart...

Perhaps this is something I may always have to pray for everyday for the rest of my life here on earth... I don't know...But if this "thorn", this heartache is what will keep me grounded and solely dependent on God, then okay... 

There were of course, many other things that we talked about, many other things that I updated him on. But those things shall remain "unblogged", haha... I actually had the opportunity to hang out with him again the following day, along with Isaac, Sean, Jourd, and later on, kuya, Ate Chette, and Kuya Api, so that was fun.

So that's that...  Thanks so much to Natalie for letting him stay up late, haha... Thank you P. Ro  for your affirmation. God used you mightily to wake me up from my complacency. Hope to see you again real soon. I'll miss you.