little more than the usual

Today I let myself...

Grieve a little more

Cry a little more

Think of her a little more

Than the usual

mum and dad at P. Ro and Natalie's wedding

Today I celebrate my mother's birthday. My friend, Najee, sent me this lady's blog, called littleremindersoflove a few months ago, and she posted a quote by Jandy Nelson that speaks very true for me.

“She will die over and over again for the rest of my life. Grief is forever. It doesn't go away; it becomes part of you, step for step, breath for breath. I will never stop grieving because I will never stop loving. That's just how it is. Grief and love are conjoined, you don't get one without the other. All I can do is love her, and love the world, emulate her by living with daring and spirit and joy.”
  

-Jandy Nelson, The Sky is Everywhere

kuya and mum in the plane to Boracay

mum and I at Italiannis

Happy birthday mum. I miss you a lot. Love you.